cubaan untuk menjadi seperti yang lain-lain juga

hehe

semalam pegi alamanda, ada la wedding fair yg start 25/2 sampai ahad ni...tak banyak pun yg join, and nampak tak semenggah mana pun, tapi tetap ada yang mencuri perhatian, and ada la few offers yang rasanya boleh dipertimbangkan. yang penting duitnya.

rasanya ada lagi wedding fair lepas ni...if i'm not mistaken, kat PWTC ada (12-14 Mac), kat MVEC pun ada (22-25 Apr). mungkin juga bersesak-sesak bersama bakal pengantin lain (macam dah confirm je kan ;p)

oh tapi agak susah nak bawak sekali encik itu, sebab dia kerja tak tentu masa. so mungkin bawak sape2 yang nak teman nanti...wah3, bersemangat sungguh :)

syukur

masih punya orang tua yang memahami
masih punya orang tua yang tidak mahu itu ini
masih punya orang tua yang melihat indahnya dunia dari kaca mata anaknya sendiri
masih punya orang tua yang sanggup bersusah demi melihat anaknya senyum sendiri
masih punya orang tua yang mengerti susahnya memulakan untuk mendapat sedikit ketenangan


sebab itu


saya sayang orang tua saya.
atas sebab-sebab yang remeh.
atas sebab-sebab yang orang lain anggap tidak perlu
atas sebab-sebab yang di anggap taboo


dan saya berterima kasih pada mereka


kerana merekalah, saya lahir
kerana merekalah, saya membesar sebegini
kerana merekalah, saya berfikiran sebegini
kerana merekalah, saya berkelakuan sebegini
kerana merekalah, yang mencorak diri ini.


jangan dicari payah jika yang datangnya mudah
jangan ditanya akhirnya jika pangkalnya tak ketahuan
jangan diduga jika tiada pengetahuan.


hidup ini tidak mudah,
tapi jangan melihat sukarnya masalah,
tapi mudahnya penyelesaian.

bila perlu kompromi

tidak terkilan
tidak juga kecewa
malah gembira
dan berbesar hati
serta bersyukur
mendapat restu
diiring doa
memberkati niat murni
menyatukan kami

-walaupun tidak seperti yang diingini


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minta banyak, layaknya seperti menjual anak sendiri
minta sedikit, layaknya seperti tidak laku dibeli

senyum pahit terukir,
buat tatapan mengurang ketegangan,
hati sedih melihat kekasih seperti hilang pegangan,
mengharap belas ketika diri dipanah puluhan pertanyaan.

ketika bibir hilang upaya,
hanya mata mampu berbicara,
meluah rasa yang tak terungkap oleh kata-kata.

mahu sahaja didakap erat bahu gagah itu,
mahu sahaja diusap lembut rambut hitam itu,
mahu sahaja digenggam kemas jari jemari itu,
mahu sahaja dibisik kalimah pengubat duka itu,
demi memberi sedikit kekuatan,
walau hanya sebesar hama.

jika yang terbaik itu adalah yang terpayah, mudahkan lah
jika yang termolek itu adalah yang terkutuk, rapikan lah
jika yang terpendek itu adalah yang terpanjang, tetapkan lah



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bila tidak hanya melibatkan satu belah pihak sahaja. ada hati yang terguris. ada hati yang terhiris.

ikut hati, mati.
ikut rasa, binasa.

bahagian masing-masing

terkesan dengan ayat kak fynn yang ini
"usah dibanding bahagia orang,untung tenggelam, kita tak tahu."

daripada sini

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mak selalu sebut, "masing-masing ada bahagian dia kat dunia ni, jangan difikir yang bukan milik"

sesungguhnya, manusia yang diberi akal dan jasad sempurna diguna pakai selalu sahaja mengidamkan yang lebih.
lebih dari yang mampu.
lebih dari yang perlu.
kerana mahukan bahagia yang lain.
sedangkan bahagia sendiri dipandang ringan.


mengambil pendekatan "biar buruk pada mata lain yang melihat, asalkan indah di mata sendiri"


biar diri sendiri berbunga gembira
biar diri sendiri gelak ketawa
biar diri sendiri menangis hiba
biar diri sendiri yang merasa semua


diri sendiri.
bukan orang lain.
kerana ini bahagian diri.
yang bukan milik orang lain.

silence

sometimes i just give up. for no apparent reason. coz i feel like a quitter most of the time. unless there are people who pushes me to move forward. which is zero at this moment.

laporan cuaca

for a few seconds aku lupa apa aku nak cerita...lost


anyway, baru teringat...yang rasa agak best balik bercuti kali ni ialah rahmat hujan. yeah, KL is so panas terik. well, kat sini pun panas jugak, tapi not as scorching hot as there. bila musim panas selalu berharap rumah ada aircond je, but unfortunately no luck in having one...so, makin sikit la pakai baju even tido malam pun, coz i'm sort of people yang memang berselimut tido, so kalau tido pun leh tak endahkan kehadiran selimut is memang panas sesungguh namanya...hehe


anyway, cik ati, dah balik mesir ke? sempat nak main salji kat umah en.adib?? i jeles ok, ktorang berpanas kat sini, u guys bersejuk main2 salji plak...huhu

inspired

sometime it seems like u have a million things to talk about and end up in a complete silence.





i'm always misguided by the feelings
please keep it real this time
i'm praying hard.

pay before it gets barred

pakcik celcom dah bagi warning : your usage as 170210 is rm90.25, it has reached 91-99% of our maximum usage. please pay ASAP before your line gets barred....aiyaa


technically...memang betul pun aku sorg je yang guna sampai dekat seratus hengget bil telepon tu (oh, jgn tanya kenapa, ni memang bukan tindakan bijak sebab tu kena banyak cmni...ahaha)...berani lagi nak gelak tu


selalunya, tak sampai rm30 pun aku kena bayar tiap2 bulan semenjak pakai postpaid celcom ni...this is alot less daripada pakai prepaid maxis, but this time around, tah silap tang mana tah, seratus tu, seratus...dua kali ganda daripada bil en.abang...erkkk...but he knows la camane leh jadi banyak camtu, and dah puas gak kitorang ber'gurau senda' pasal bil itu, and lastly i made a promise not to splurge that much to call anybody or to surf the net...huhu


ok2 my fault...hehe

keep the tongue to yourself

if you are not ready to hear the answers, dont even try to ask the questions. it'll ruin both hearts, it'll bring rage.

hari esok siapa tahu ceritanya macam mana

btw, i just wanna send my deepest regret and sorry to the people who felt betrayed by me, broken hearted and such...i'm really sorry...coz if i already knew what's gonna happen tomorrow, i'll never start doing it today. and i wont be making that kind of mistake.


i stop being so soft and mellow inside. coz it wears me out. so, i'm done.

guilty

duduk dirumah bercuti bermaksud makan tanpa rasa bersalah sebab makanan tersedia ada dihidang depan mata...becoming a potato couch...ouch!!! (nasib bik cuti seminggu je...haha)


tapi, kalau buat tu je sepanjang hari might get yourself bored to death too...nasib baik sekali lagi dengan kehadiran broadband tajaan, so kurang sikit la kebosanan.


hari ni macam takde pe nak diceritakan. except, i felt so tired of trying to patch the lace onto the fabric by myself (what am i talking bout?) takpe, nanti i tunjuk hasil kerja i, okei...it gets frustrated at times too, menduga jari, tulang belakang, dan mata betul...but, as someone told me, demi hari bahagia...tapi bila tengok baju tu semula, macam tak padan pulak nak pakai masa majlis tu nanti...ahh, biarla (ni semua gara2 nak save budget punya pasal and my obsession of doing everything by myself) macam la pandai sangat ;p

just let it be

bila rasa dah tak sabar nak buat "bangs" kat rambut sendiri ala2 contoh di bawah, dan memandangan amoi2 pemotong rambut masih busy beraya, aku end up mencantas rambut sendiri...ahaha

source from google

it has always been "nak rambut panjang, nak rambut panjang" sebab rasa rambut panjang tu feminin la, lagi menarik de bomb la, walhal rambut sendiri sebenarnya lambat nak tumbuh...and bila dah penat tunggu for almost a year and cuma few inches je pemanjangannya, aku jadi fed up...mula la fikir nak potong rambut pendek semula...actually masa tengok E! kat astro ada dokumentari pasal pe tah, and katie holmes punya shortcut looks yang buat aku agak teruja nak ada rambut pendek semula :p

source from google

yeah baby...that kinda look konon2 aku nak buat, tp haram tak jadi camtu pun...ahaha...nanti bila amoi pemotong rambut yang aku selalu gunakan perkhidmatannya dah beroperasi semula, aku nak mintak dia potong rambut sama panjang jela...make it clean cut...coz usually aku mesti buat layer, due to the thickness of the hair...buat masa sekarang ni, just let it be jela dengan bangs yang tak menjadi...erkk ;p

seronoknya bercuti

sekarang tengah dengar bunyi mercun sempena CNY...every year it will be like dis...but dis year, macam kurang kuat kot...previously, macam kena heart attack tiap kali dengar bunyi mercun bila time raya cina...it is just the same kalau kita orang melayu sambut aidilfitri...mercun n meriam is basically a must...paling common pun mesti ada bunga api...it will be fun to watch kalau di handle dengan betul...kalau suka2 main tapi tak reti nak jaga keselamatan diri yang leh buat hilang jari la, buta mata la, stuff like dat la kan...

dis CNY, aku amek kesempatan bercuti panjang di rumah...coz its a long holiday 4 de students, so demonstrator pun join cuti panjang gak...hehe, aku suka mengajar 4 dis particular reason jugak la...student cuti, instructor/lecturer pun cuti sama gak...hehe

n, much to my own disbelief...mungkin aku ada projek buat dress lagi (mungkin impian buat baju ala2 lynda rahim inspired dress yang aku minat tu tercapai juga)*wink*wink*...dis time, i got the material from my mom...cme kne bli kain untuk buat lining je...i already have the idea, cuma nak realize kan je tu tah bile...hehe...boleh anggap material tu vintage gak la...mak simpan pun lebih 20 taun gak nya, tapi masih cantik even ada sikit cacat...tapi xnk bersungguh sangat, nanti tak jadi aku gak yang sedih...

again, doa2 la yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri dan pasangan. moga dipermudahkan urusan. Amin.

petanda ekonomi dah ok kot

bila no plat kenderaan cpt je berubah2...taun lps nk gerak dr huruf R ke S pn amek mse b'bulan2...skrg ni semalam nmpk N, soknya dh jd P...uisshhh, hebat...hehe...mentang2 la nk CNY, promosi kereta murah kot...hehe

Feb oh Feb

bila Feb je jalan ke mana2 pun mst nmpk love signs, board besar2 reminding people the month of love...as they claimed it (bln2 len xleh loving2 ke...haha)


i'm not celebrating it...no worries bout dat...cuma bila tiba bln Feb je, tibe2 secara otomatik akan rasa hati berbunga2, mungkin sebab aura lovey dovey tu...jln mana2 pun semua putarkan love songs je manjang...semalam tgk preview Valentine's Day kat cineleisure...i have to say that besar2an jugak la dia promote cite tu...repeated trailers from the movie, non stop...trailer movie tu shj ye, movie lain jgn harap nak share the limelight, n siap ada mcm program untuk nk celebrate preview cite tu kt ground floor...poster movie is everywhere dekat cinema tu...rsenye dia tanggalkan sume poster lain...the movie?wasnt that bad, sweet jugak, klaka jugak, byk famous actors for sure...quite lama gak, 2hours, i guess...


oh...bln ni pn ramai yg amek peluang nk kawen la, tunang la, b'sungguh cr pakwe/makwe la,stuff like dat la...gud for u guys...n congratulation from me...


btw, in conjuction to the month of love...please give ways to the love, put aside all ur hatred n negative feelings k...senyum je :) hehe


love is so contagious...n it can get really ugly if u didnt handle it well...be happy everybody :)

this is funny...;p

taken from here


sweet ;p


"Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater"

Give her sperm, she will give u a baby.
Give her a house, she will give u a home.
Give her groceries, she will give u a meal.
Give her a smile n she will give u her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what she is given.

So if u give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit...




p/s ahaha...so Mr.Z, dont ever blame me for acting the way i am...i'm only returning the favors :)

OH OH OH

now i know what i want...everything with round shape or sphere as we called it...ahaha (^,^)

confused

silap aku ke silap orang lain yang salah faham??


pening kepala fikir.


aku rasa aku tak silap. sebab aku dah tanya masa awal2 lagi dan orang tu jawab aku tak buat apa2 yang salah pun.


tapi kenapa sekarang orang tu buat aku rasa macam aku yang silap??


kenapa??


pelik.

please spare a thought for me

needless to say...sometimes u have to be selfish and cruel and mean to the one u love just to grab their attention...just to get that glimpse of affection in a sense to acknowledge the relationship even exists...being a woman who likes her man to take charge without mis-using his power, i like to be told what to do rather than to decide my own action (or maybe i'm just too lazy to even think about making decisions)





it is not that i love being the non-dominant partner in a relationship coz i do being the dominant partner if i want something and i'll have it my way either he likes it or not but i love the fact that someone can guide me, lead me to to the things that really matters in a relationship, coz i'm not a natural-born leader...no, i dont think i have that kind of trait in my genes...and most probably, i just love to laid back and be worry-less by not sweating myself to make decisions. i just hate that. making decisions, i mean. the laid back thing is a feel good feeling.





yes, we both have difficulties in adjusting. we both are not basically in loving moments all the time (if loving means no quarrels, getting yourself emotionally hurt and annoyed with each other)...coz we both do quarrels alot, even some of my friends seem suprised to know that we went through rough patches even in our first year together, coz USUALLY it is not like that, coz first year means honeymoon time, dating time, we should be lovey dovey and such but we are not that typical couple, i guess...but it doesnt mean that we dont love each other...it is just the way we show our love, through quarrels...





we learn so much about each other through all those sad, teary moments...those bickering days brings us closer than ever...those neverending disagreement and arguing only happen coz we simply cant be bothered to talk things nicely...we just love to make things seems over the top...even the smallest pin-hole matter will turn into a crack that will lead to a disastrous catastrophe (see, guna perkataan pun nak over)


but as a humble human being, i'm only praying for the best of things to happen. i'm not asking much, just enough to make us stronger, getting ourself through this emotional ordeal safely and finally getting our sanity back into thinking the things that really matters...which is love. coz i just love this tall, dark and handsome guy to be right by my side through my lonely days, bringing the smile back to my face and be happily walk beside me, telling me all those lame jokes. and i love his smiles, and i hope one day, if i'm being blessed to get my tummy bulging with our child, i want the child to have the daddy's smiles.

p/s he's not that TALL, not that DARK, neither he is not that HANDSOME...but, he is my version of a TDH guy...so as people told me ;p